William V Henriquez

I have to be careful about who I tell my shit to. Now more than ever. I don’t know who actually cares about what’s going on in my life and who just wants to stab me in the back. Yeah maybe they’re not doing it intentionally, but if I tell you something in confidence, something to do with a delicate issue in my life, and i’m trusting you with it, it’s because I only want you to know. I don’t want to find out that other people know my shit as well. Because for all I know they’re spreading it around to others. That’s a stab in the back to me. I’ve lost so much already, and this would just make things worse.

I’m afraid, I don’t really know who my real friends are anymore. When I came into this place, I was happy, I was cheerful, I was full of hope. That’s all gone now. I don’t know what to do. Should I leave? Or Should I stay? Would I actually gain anything If I stay put? Or would I just be chasing a neverending pavement. I’m not happy anymore, not like I used to. And that kills me more than anything. I’m expected to act a certain way and change myself if I want to get what i want the most, what I’ve been waiting for for so long now. Is it really worth it? Changing myself in order to obtain that? 

I don’t have an answer to any of these questions. But I do know this. Right now, my life sort of sucks.

I don’t know who to trust and whom not to trust.

I don’t know why I’m still hanging on to something that isn’t going to happen.

I don’t know how long my best friend will be in my life for.

I don’t know if things will be better for me somwhere else.

I don’t know what to wear tomorrow for work.

I don’t know if I’ll ever stop procrastinating and start taking my health and the potential danger there seriously.

I don’t know if I’ll go back to school to study my new found love and passion…

…and most of all, I don’t know if I’ll gain the hope I had a year ago anytime in the near future…it just seems hopeless right now.

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Will V

I have goals and aspirations. And I won’t let anyone stand in my way. I’m going to fullfill those goals, because it’s my life, because I’m worth it. “NO” doesn’t exist for me. Don’t let anyone ever tell you you can’t do something, because they are DEAD wrong. I’m excited for this new stage in my life. ;) 

Amen Fashion…

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Will V